What's happenin with you shawty. This actually isn't specifically for Amber, but more of the avenue of the world that I am writing to speak to. THis summer has been a eye opener. Truly, it has been full of emotions and trails. Not all good and not all bad. I am now more humble than I ever was before. I think, wait I know I have growed intellectually over the summer. I can't even think to compare this to any other point in my life. The variety of people and resources I have came in contact with has been so enormous that it has took time to process such a overwhelming change and the information I have received has been so influential in my change of life. Don't take this as a complete revelation(because we all have our relapses, its human nature), but as a continous revelation or a ongoing pursuit for the greater welfare of my humanity. This has put in motion a forever evolving and changing of my internal self (in turn will help me in my external self. Please don't mistake this as an overnight celebrity type phenomenon, no its far from that. This has been a work in progress for years. It wasn't apparent to me until recently that I had been preparing myself for this for awhile. I suppose the right factors came into play at the same time(e.g. laid off from work aka recession, burn out from school, a big infactuation with psychology and the mind seeing that I was in the prison of my mind & poverty, and the right biology and, OGs' to tell me and make me understand more of a life I don't want with too many complications risen from the ignornace around my area about every element of a good life, and the works of Plato, Kant,Socrates, and W.E.B. Du Bois, oh and one of the most influential guys of psyh, Sigmund Freud which helped bring more things to the light of my eyes. While also seacrhing for a more spirtual connection with God and trying to overall better myself and helping my circle and network of friends and associates better themselves in all walks of life. I know if I didn't go through what I have in the last two years or more than I don' think I would have reached this point in my life. I was too busy to see anything other than what was in front of me. I am not sure how I will take this new found knowledge and turn it into a abundance of energy for the world, but I have a couple of random ideas, so I will just have to see where the leaves fall. I thank God tat he let me go through this to reopen my eyes to more than just a street life. But it is a reason for every action so I will take it as I had to endure this to be able to speak full hearted to the youth that is endanger of a superficial truth, and that will fall and crumble, just as the poor foundation it was built upon. I refuse to give up on my path to Zion(to the promised Land, heaven, a deeper spritual relationship with God). Ummmm at the moment my words are getting short right now, but for whoever is reading this understand that if you feel indifferent about anything to you to stay in the dark. Dont condemn the unknown, if you have no grounds or research to back up your opposition because thats just plain ignorance and we all need enlightening sometime. Yeah shawty throw them thangs up.
P.S. I rather die a man, than to be an alive slave.( By any means of being a slave toa ny materialism or abtsract feeling , or person.
